| | It has been a long time, hasn't it?
My time here actually hasn't been that bad. It's nearly summer now, which makes me happy. It seems like so much time has passed since last summer ended, and I can remember not being able to wait for school to start up again. It is funny how that works, isn't it? I am so ready for school to be out, and after a month of summer, I am ready to return to school again. Perhaps it will be that way when I have children, too.
This summer is going to be very different from previous summers. My parents live out of state, and Ethan is moving out of town. Of course, I am going to go visit my parents for a while during the summer. When I return, I'm going to be searching for a job. I would like to search and apply now, but since I am leaving for an extended period of time and I don't know exactly when I'm going to leave, it would be unwise to apply for work now. So, I will just wait until I return.
I had hoped to apply for a position at the zoo in Indianapolis this summer, but as I'm going to be gone for a while, I can't really do that, either. So today, I have to meet the women in charge of volunteers at the local animal shelter. I'm very excited about it. If there is one thing in my life that I am passionate about, it is animals.
I cut off ties with my friend Josh. I have no idea if I ever mentioned him on here, but I'm just letting everyone know that I'm not longer speaking with him. It was a hard thing to do, as he was once of my closest friends. However, his behavior and attitude toward me of late has done nothing but make me angry, and I will no longer deal with it. I don't have to. I was beginning to see the real Josh, and I didn't like what I found. I discovered that the person I thought I knew so well for the past year was a completely different person than I originally thought. Why are people so deceptive? I will never understand this. Obviously, I don't because I was just intent on being such a forgiving person. I suppose that I always put myself out there to get hurt by giving people more chances than they ever deserved. I'm done with that, though. I'm done forgiving.
Hell, I can't even find it in me to forgive Judy. And why should I? She has done nothing but caused trouble in my family for as long as I have been alive. Actually, longer. Quite honestly, I don't believe that she loves me. Sure, she said she did. I'm finding that awfully hard to believe with each passing day. She hasn't even attempted to contact me, and she has been spreading lies about me. Yes, I would love to have a grandmother in my life, but I am not about to fake a relationship with her. I'm not going to pretend that everything is okay with us.
I took the SAT on Saturday, and I am hoping that I scored well. I don't expect much, though.
There are a lot of things going on for me right now, and I will maybe tell more about them later, when I have more time. For now, I have to get out to the animal shelter.
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