I only come here sometimes for the song you have up there since I'm too lazy to download. i don't like commenting on people's blogs because they're sacred places that should be left alone. but from experience, it's not good or healthy to use someone else as a reason for anything especially something as important as your future or your current life. i'm not saying your BF isn't important. close friends are important, but they should not be a number one priority. your number one priority should be your dream. what do you want to do with your life? friends come and go but a lifelong dream stays with you....even when you've failed to achieve it. it will be there... haunting you.

if you still don't quite get it. imagine switching roles with your BF. imagine HE was writing a blogpost like this about you. wouldn't that put excessive pressure on you to keep him happy?

@portentsofmandarin - To be honest, I really don't think that he reads this, and so I don't think that it matters.

I have to thank him for even to beginning to care about my dreams and such. A month ago, I honestly didn't care. My future schooling and career didn't matter to me. I really didn't know what I wanted to do with my life.

Now, thanks to him, I know what I want to do. I know where I want to go. I actually have dreams now.

So. I don't know. You could be right. I could be putting too much pressure on him.